family

today was a rather special day. all along the last few years, i never used to do anything special for my dad. i thought i didn't have to go all out, because i thought he owed us. just being a good daughter would have been good enough.

but i remember now, the 2 people who have told me otherwise. they taught me, that as a daughter, i should do something more. i can go all the way out to be a good daughter to him, to do something special for him, to make an effort to be closer to him. i thought it was absurd and so difficult for me to do when i first heard it. but after tonight.. i see the reason why they told me that.

the first person told me that months ago. at that time, i wouldn't have believed it could have been just this easy to take a step closer to someone. this person.. as silly as he is, he is still the very first person to have told me that. thank you for telling me that. at times, he can see things that i cannot see.. he knows my heart more than he realises he does. the other is also very close to me.. my own granny.

i haven't had a relaxing dinner just with my dad and my brother in such a long time. i feel so happy tonight that we finally ate together. i felt so glad that i made time to go out to eat with him. just seeing him so happy to be able to eat with his children.. treating us whatever we wanted to eat. i know he's not perfect, but.. i'm just happy to have him.

it's not that hard after all. you're right. thank you!
for making me take this first step, ben n grandma.